told ill be going to sydney tomorrow morning for pre-season (i should start packing): but while on this i feel inclined to touch on how underestimated athletic excellence is. especially with the world cup that has just passed and people say ‘its just men kicking a ball’. unless youve experienced firsthand the trials physically and mentally to even make the step into being a pro itll be hard to grasp that it isnt just men kicking a ball.
the step you take from being just a youth team player to first team player is immense. unlike the 9-5 world its such a large leap. this leap has been what 4 years and im still not there. who knows if i ever will be. theres no one-off interview to secure a contract. theres no settling in period. theres no resting on your laurels. dont get up to speed you get cold shouldered. dont have banter no one talks to you. you do one good session you think its enough but its not theres 6 more days to the week. its a brutal place where no one puts their arm around you to say i hope you make it. nah its a place where you have to back yourself where you work so hard to just conform so you get that pat on the shoulder and finally you feel warm and good again but you know that tomorrow if you fuck up you’ll be out in the cold again.